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はてなキーワード: human beingとは
Bob the First, at the head of my long list of robins, having been killed by my pet owl, I very soon bought another. This one was not so gentle nor so handsome as Bob the First, his wings and his tail having their ends sawed off by contact with the wires of too small a cage.
Fearing that he might be lonely in my aviary with only rabbits, guineapigs, pet rats, and pigeons for company, I bought another robin called Dick. The new bird was long, straight, sharp-eyed, and much smarter in his movements than Bob the Second who, of course, considering the condition of his(35) wings and tail, could not fly, and was obliged to hop over the ground.
It was very amusing to see the two robins stare at each other. Both had probably been trapped young, for at that time the law against the keeping of wild birds in captivity was not enforced, and boys and men were perniciously active in their depredations among our beautiful wild beauties.
Bob the Second was very fond of stuffing himself, and he used to drive the pigeons from the most promising window ledges and partake freely of the food scattered about.
Poor Dick ran about the ground looking for worms, and not finding many, got desperate and flew up to the window ledge.
Bob lowered his head and flew at him with open bill. Dick snapped at him, hopped up to the food, and satisfied his hunger, Bob meanwhile standing at a little distance, a queer, pained thread of sound issuing from between his bill, “Peep, peep, peep!”
A robin is a most untidy bird while eating, and as often as Dick scattered a morsel of food outside the dish, Bob would spring forward and pick it up with a reproving air, as if he were saying, “What an extravagant fellow you are!”
Whenever a new bird enters an aviary, he has to find his place—he is just like a new-comer in a community of human beings. Bob, being alone, was in the lead when Dick came. Dick, having the stronger bird mind, promptly dethroned him. They were(36) very amusing birds. Indeed, I find something clownish and comical about all robins kept in captivity.
The wild bird seems to be more businesslike. The partly domesticated bird, having no anxiety about his food supply, indulges in all sorts of pranks. He is curious and fond of investigation, and runs swiftly at a new object, and as swiftly away from it, if it seems formidable to him.
The arrival of new birds in the aviary always greatly excited Bob, and he hopped about, chirping, strutting, raising his head feathers, and sometimes acting silly with his food, just like a foolish child trying to “show off” before strangers.
When I introduced a purple gallinule to him, Bob flew up into the air, and uttered a shriek of despair. He feared the gallinule, and hated the first Brazil cardinal I possessed, and was always sparring with him. One day I put a second cardinal into the aviary. Bob thought it was his old enemy, and ran full tilt at him. His face of ludicrous dismay as he discovered his mistake and turned away, was too much for me, and I burst out laughing at him. I don’t think he minded being made fun of. He flirted his tail and hopped away.
At one time Bob made up his mind that he would not eat crushed hemp-seed unless I mixed it with bread and milk, and he would throw it all out of his dish unless I made it in the way he liked.
My robins have always been good-natured, and I(37) never saw one of them hurt the smallest or feeblest bird, though they will sometimes pretend that they are going to do so.
When Bob took a sun-bath, any member of the family who happened to be near him would always be convulsed with laughter. He would stretch his legs far apart, stick out his ragged plumage, elevate his head feathers till he looked as if he had a bonnet on, and then half shut his eyes with the most ludicrous expression of robin bliss.
All birds look more or less absurd when taking sun-baths. They seem to have the power to make each feather stand out from its neighbor. I suppose this is done in order that the sun may get to every part of the skin.
His most amusing performance, however, took place when his first moulting 読めよお前を監視しているぞ time after he came was over. One by one his old, mutilated feathers dropped out, and finally new ones took their places. On a memorable day Bob discovered that he had a real tail with a white feather on each side of it, and a pair of good, serviceable wings. He gave a joyful cry, shook his tail as if he would uproot it, then spread his wings and lifted himself in the air. Hopping time was over. He was now a real bird, and he flew from one end of the aviary to the other with an unmistakable expression of robin ecstasy.
Most unfortunately, I had not a chance to study poor Dick’s character as fully as Bob’s, for I only had him a short time. Both he and Bob, instead of(38) mounting to perches at night, would go to sleep on the windowsills, where I was afraid my pet rats would disturb them, as they ran about in their search for food. Therefore, I went into the aviary every evening, and lifted them up to a comfortable place for the night, near the hot-water pipes. I would not put robins in a warm place now. They are hardy birds, and if given a sufficient quantity of nourishing food do not need a warm sleeping-place. If we only had a better food supply I believe we would have many more wild birds with us in winter in the Northern States and Canada than we have now.
Late one evening I went into the aviary to put my robins to bed. I could only find Bob—Dick was nowhere to be seen. My father and mother joined me in the search, and finally we found his poor, lifeless body near the entrance to the rats’ underground nest. His head had been eaten—poor, intelligent Dick; and in gazing at him, and at the abundance of food in the aviary, the fate of the rats was sealed.
I fed my birds hard-boiled egg mashed with bread crumbs, crushed hemp-seed, scalded cornmeal, bread and milk, prepared mockingbird food, soaked ant eggs, all kinds of mush or “porridge,” as we say in Canada, chopped beef, potato and gravy, vegetables cooked and raw, seeds and fruit, an almost incredible amount of green stuff, and many other things—and yet the rats had found it necessary to commit a murder.
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Well, they must leave the aviary, and they did, and for a time Bob reigned alone. I did try to bring up a number of young robins given to me by children who rescued them from cats, or who found them on the ground unable to fly, but for a long time I had very hard luck with them.
Either the birds were diseased or I did not feed them properly. I have a fancy that I half starved them. Bird fanciers whom I consulted told me to be sure and not stuff my robins, for they were greedy birds. As long as I took their advice my young robins died. When I went to my canaries for advice I saw that the parents watched the tiny heads folded like flowers too heavy for their stalks, over the little warm bodies in the nests.
The instant a head was raised the mother or father put a mouthful of warm egg-food in it. The little ones got all they would eat—indeed, the father, with food dripping from his mouth, would coax his nestlings to take just one beakful more. I smiled broadly and began to give my robins all the worms they wanted, and then they lived.
The bringing up of young birds is intensely interesting. I found that one reason why early summer is the favorite time for nest-making is because one has the short nights then. Parents can feed their young quite late in the evening and be up by early daylight to fill the little crops again. Robins are birds that like to sit up late, and are always the last to go to bed in the aviary.
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I solved the difficulty of rising at daylight to feed any young birds I was bringing up by giving them a stuffing at eleven o’clock at night. Then I did not have to rise till nearly eight.
This, of course, was for healthy birds. If I had a sick guineapig, rabbit, or bird, I never hesitated to get up many times during the night, for I have a theory that men and women who cannot or will not undertake the moral responsibility of bringing up children, should at least assist in the rearing of some created thing, if it is only a bird. Otherwise they become egotistical and absorbed in self.
先日、クレジットカードの規制避けのためにエロ用語を隠語に置き換える処置をしたエロサイトがありましたね。
逆レイプを逆レにしたり監禁を閉じ込めにしたりしたことで賛否両論が巻き起こったのは記憶に新しいでしょう。
確かにこのような隠語の使用で意味をぼかすのは私もあまり良いこととは思えません。
レイプは確かにレイプですし監禁も監禁ですが、ロリータはもともと女児という意味ではありません。
それがナボコフの少女愛小説に使われたことで一気に少女の象徴となり、それと同時に娘にЛолитаと名づける親は激減しました。ですからЛолитаという名前をもつ女性の高齢化は進むばかりです。
「ひよこという既存の言葉を乗っ取らないでロリに戻せ」といわれるロリがそもそも既存の言葉を乗っ取っているというのは皮肉なものです。
最後に、ロリータの歌をお聞きください。（歌い始めるのは２番からです）
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOLqsrDGRcM
↑追記
元増田はもっともらしくキリル文字で書いているが、ナボコフの小説『ロリータ』はもともと英語で書かれている。
そして、「ロリータ」はその登場人物ドロレスの愛称であり、そもそも「ロリータ」などという名前を親からつけられた人物は登場しない。
これ見てhttps://www.behindthename.com/name/lolita/top/united-states で調べたらそもそもロシア語圏の名前というわけではないし、アメリカではナボコフの本の前後でLolita減ってませんでした。ゴメンネ❤️
ただしロシアではЛолитаは本当に激減したと聞いてます。こういうのイメージの問題なので、親が子にЛолитаとつけたくない気持ちを持つのに原語は英語とかロリータは本名じゃないとか関係ないでしょう。
ちなみにナボコフ自身は"I am probably responsible for the odd fact that people don't seem to name their daughters Lolita any more. I have heard of young female poodles being given that name since 1956, but of no human beings." http://nabokov-lit.ru/nabokov/intervyu/life-1964.htm と言ってるので、世界のlolitaという名前（おそらくЛолитаもひっくるめて）が自分のおかげで減ったと認識してたようです。（ちなみにこの文書を書いた後ナボコフ自身でLolitaをロシア語に訳している）
「人間を、高等教育によって、性も格差も気にしなくていい「HUMAN BEING」として育成する」 という20世紀の壮大な理想は、頭打ちになってきているといってもいい。
今後、さらなる技術の発展で多少は進展するかもしれないが、どうやらコスト的にこれ以上理想にむけて努力するキャパは限界に来ているらしい。
それでも、19世紀からみればもう理想に向けて劇的に進歩した。だが届かなかった。
今日に至っても相変わらず生殖と一定の養育に関しては現実的なコストで克服することが出来なかった。若い女性が若いうちに生み、育成するのが一番安上がりなのである。
グローバル経済が発展するにすれ、コストの問題を理想で克服できなくなった。もちろん、能力的にそれ以上の利益を生み出せる人はいい。
だから、「できるところが自分でやるぶんにはいいが、社会全体としてそれを保証するというコストを背負えなくなった」ということだろう。
I would like to write about what I know and understand about the Soka Gakkai because the D.C. Times published an article titled "China's Manipulation of Japan, NPOs and Soka Gakkai Act as Pipeline = U.S. Think Tank Report".
First of all, as a premise, the Soka Gakkai is a cult.
This is because there is a definition of a religious cult, and the reality of the Soka Gakkai falls under that definition in many ways.
You can read more about the definition of a religious cult and mind control in the book "Combating Cult Mind Control: The #1 Best-selling Guide to Protection, Rescue, and Recovery from Destructive Cults ".
The Soka Gakkai is also a collection of criminals, sick people and poor people.
In fact, the Soka Gakkai is similar to the mafia gangs in Italy and Mexico, and it has reigned as the largest criminal and anti-society organization in Japan in the name of a religious organization.
Many of its members have been brainwashed and are unable to recognize and judge themselves as normal human beings.
In the 1950s and 1980s, Soka Gakkai members were forcibly recruited to join the Soka Gakkai, and nowadays, it is estimated that about 10% of the Japanese people are members of the Gakkai (Soka Gakkai members).
In particular, the Soka Gakkai has infiltrated civil servants, specifically the police force, the fire department, and the Self-Defense Forces, and it has been revealed that 20 to 30% of the Metropolitan Police Department's employees are members of the Soka Gakkai.
There is always a certain percentage of Soka Gakkai members in elementary, middle, and high school classes, and in corporate workplaces, and therefore it is taboo to criticize the Soka Gakkai in those communities.
This is because the Gakkai members in each community monitor the words and actions of their community members in the same way as the mainland communists who have infiltrated Hong Kong, and if someone speaks out against the Soka Gakkai, they will target that person and initiate a campaign of sabotage.
The sabotage is similar to the CPC's repressive actions against human rights activists in Hong Kong, including obstructing, harassing, and following them around, an act that has been described as mass stalking.
For example, in Japan, if you make a placating statement in a school class or at work that the Soka Gakkai is a cult religious group because it meets the definition of a cult group, members of the Gakkai in the community get madly angry (depending on the degree of mind control they are receiving) or bite off their anger to deny the statement.
Then they label the person who made such a statement as "anti", and they also share information about the antis with other members of the Soka Gakkai, and begin to perceive them as "beings to be punished by Buddha", to be targets of surveillance and group attacks.
In reality, however, the definition of a religious cult was not defined for the Soka Gakkai but for dangerous religious groups such as Aum Shinrikyo and People's Temple, which were intended to prevent ordinary people from being harmed by them.
The Soka Gakkai falls under the definition of a cult because the Soka Gakkai has cult-like tendencies.
When Soka Gakkai members are pointed out to the Soka Gakkai, instead of thinking "Let's fix what's wrong with my religious group," they think of suppressing their critics (anti) and silencing them, which is a pattern of thinking and behavior of a fanatic of a religious cult, and the sarin gas attack (terrorism). I feel that the followers of Aum Shinrikyo at the time when it was founded must have had a similar pattern of thinking and behavior.
Believers in cult groups are unconsciously mind-controlled and brainwashed, so they don't think that they should change their way of thinking and behavior when criticism is pointed out to them. In this respect, their attitude is similar to that of the Chinese Communist Party towards the demands of human rights activists in Hong Kong, i.e., the fanatics of cult groups such as the Soka Gakkai are not normal human beings.
By the way, there is an organization called JCP in Japan, which is also anti-American and illegal in the United States.
It is well known that some anti-American organizations cooperate with each other in order to undermine this country by signing a pact called "Soko Kyodo Agreement" and facilitating agents of anti-Japanese and anti-American groups.
It is obvious that the JCP is an anti-American terrorist organization in nature and that the JCP is a cult-like organization when it signs an agreement with a religious cult.
From another point of view, the Soka Gakkai, to its followers, appears to be a huge organization that carries out fraudulent and criminal activities such as Ponzi schemes and network businesses. It also has elements of a black business, and believers who join the Soka Gakkai are becoming materially and mentally exhausted.
The following blog, run by Mr. Sinifié, exposes the reality of the Soka Gakkai. It contains the testimonies and experiences of many current and former Soka Gakkai members and ex-members who have left the Gakkai.
It is clear that this reality of the Soka Gakkai is far removed from the original role of religion, which is to provide individuals with peace of mind and spiritual support.
As the saying goes, "like begets friend," it is only natural for the Soka Gakkai to try to maintain a good relationship with the CPC.
However, many Chinese who have worked in Japan seem to dislike the Soka Gakkai and return to their countries.
Although the Soka Gakkai employs a different strategy than Aum Shinrikyo and has infiltrated many organizations such as corporations, police, fire departments, the Self-Defense Forces, and local government officials, the Soka Gakkai members who have infiltrated the Kasumigaseki bureaucracy and the Self-Defense Forces are considered dangerous to the U.S. because they are inherently dangerous.
Because they are essentially anti-American and may act as agents to cooperate with the CPC.
There are some findings that are common knowledge among intellectuals in the U.S. and Europe but have not been made known to the Japanese people in Japan because the media and bureaucrats have stopped them.
One of them is that the Soka Gakkai headquarters has been sending donations from Gakkai members to Noriega (former general, now imprisoned) in Panama for large-scale tax evasion and money laundering.
Noriega received a large amount of money from Daisaku Ikeda of the Soka Gakkai and invested it in his own drug business, spreading drugs on an international level.
Daisaku Ikeda of the Soka Gakkai has been investing and managing the donations collected from Gakkai members in Noriega's drug business as well as tax evasion and money laundering. At the same time, the Soka Gakkai and Daisaku Ikeda invested the donations they received from Gakkai members in Noriega's drug business as a means of tax evasion and money laundering, and returned the profits to the domestic market to help the Soka Gakkai executives line their pockets and build Soka Gakkai facilities and Soka University.
The fact that Daisaku Ikeda raised Noriega's profile in the Seikyo Shimbun during the same period must be undeniable to those Gakkai members who have subscribed to the Seikyo Shimbun.
In particular, there are many Gakkai members at the level of police organizations, the Metropolitan Police Department and prefectures, who have been causing social problems and covering up crimes committed by Gakkai members in Japan.
Well, if they are in a state of unconscious brainwashing and mind control, they may not believe the contents, and may assume a pattern of behavior such as getting angry, grumpy, or attacking the writer.
In other words, one can expect a lot of denial of facts like the followers of Aum Shinrikyo, which is easy to expect, but this (the issue of Soka Gakkai and drug business, tax evasion, and money laundering) is a fact that was revealed because Noriega was arrested and imprisoned for spreading drugs in the US. This is a fact that is well known as common knowledge in the U.S. and Europe.
The fact that the Soka Gakkai is a criminal organization is very difficult to deny.
アシカは、
"It is meant as a metaphorical stand-in for human beings that display certain behaviors"（拙訳：ある種の振る舞いを見せるヒトを代理する隠喩を意図している）そうで、"not analogous to a prejudice based on race, species, or other immutable characteristics"（拙訳：人種、種、その他の不変の特性に基づく偏見に類似するものではない）そうだ（Wondermark » Archive » 2014 Errata）
In 2001 Kofi Annan received the Nobel Prize in conjunction with the United Nations.
The focus of his speech was global inequality.
"Ladies and gentlemen,
Today in Afghanistan a girl will be born.
Her mother will hold her, feed her and comfort her and care for her just as any mother would anywhere else in the world.
In those most basic acts of human nature, humanity knows no divisions.
But to be born a girl in Afghanistan today, is to begin life centuries away from the prosperity that one small part of humanity has achieved.
Even thought her mother would do all in her power, to protect her and sustain her.
There is a one in four risk that the girl will not live to see her fifth birthday.
Whether she does is just one of the tests of our common humanity of our belief in our individual responsibility for our fellow men and women.
But it is the only test that matters.
Remember this girl then our large aims to fight poverty, prevent conflict or cure disease will nothing distant or impossible.
Indeed those aims would seem very near and very achievable as they should.
Because beneath the surface of stats and nations, ideas and language lies the fate of individual human beings in need.
Answering their needs will be the mission of the United Nations in the century to come.
元増田をちゃんと読んだのか？
英語の中で日本の敬称システムを使うこと自体に疑問を投げかけている。
なんだそのいきなりな馴れ馴れしさ。
ある日本文化（敬称システム）の一部分だけを都合よく切り取って、それを本来の様式に乗っ取らずに（≒適切な敬意を払うことなく）、都合よく利用していることに対して抗議している。
英語の文の中で、sanを使うことが、近年度々話題になる「文化の盗用」に当たるという指摘。
その上で、
Talk like a normal human being だ馬鹿野郎。
元増田は、「さん」と「様」の使い分けがなっていないことにケチをつけてもいるが、
Talk like a normal human being だ馬鹿野郎。
という書き込みから、「普通の人間として扱って欲しいのであって、外国人だからといって特別扱いされたくない」のだということがわかる。
実際、他人に挨拶するにあたって、そいつが日本人であるという事を意識する必要はないし、日本人だけ特別扱いしてsanづけする必要もない。それをわざわざしていることが差別と感じるということ。差別というのは必ずしも悪い意図があって生じるものではない。
なお、Mr. と Ms. の使い分けができないというのは、英語で喋っている以上は「英語ができない」という問題でしかない。英語で喋っているのにわざわざ日本語の敬称を使おうとするのは、「日本語ができない」とか「日本の文化がわかってない」という問題ではない。「使わなければ良い」。
１（Ａ） 次の英文の内容を、７０～８０字の日本語に要約せよ。句読点も字数に含める。
Japanese is concluded from two of the next.
At first a source language as the shared sound and form exists. Then, the high language that only a ruler can understand exists. This high language is special, and the person ruled over cannot understand this. Japanese race is surely a race sharing a language. However, the language that they share is a sound and form low-grade to the last, and the language for the ruler is never shared to them.
For Japanese shared by a Japanese, there is only the language that is so-called base character.
In the future, the Japanese may not share a high-level language either. The Japanese is divided into the ruler who is a sophisticate and a person ruled over. They are the races which still share a lower language by a sound and the form, but the language equal to a European and American language is never shared. It depends on the next reason.
The Japanese ruler is angry at the native most badness of Japanese people and performs transcendence-like self-generation. He thereby becomes a man of power. That means, it means that the Japanese of the overwhelming majority that cannot be angry at a native human being cannot follow a ruler. In other words, in Japan, the democratic constitution is never agreed. The reason why all the Japanese get ability for agreement for such a constitution is at first impossible. Thus, there is not the constitution of the democracy in Japan.
In Japan, the phenomenon that the agreement for the democratic constitution is concluded is absolutely impossible. It is only an empire constitution that Japan can exist.
The Japanese cannot get a modern nation by the power of GHQ either. The Japanese can make only a German empire constitution of the 19th century.
The Nazis abolished the constitution like superior German welfare principles, but, in Japan, they are surely less than it. Japan cannot agree even the constitution like the principle of welfare. The Japanese ruler can adopt only the empire constitution that a German establish after Holy Roman Empire collapse.
In the first place the phenomenon that 100 million human beings whom there is in Japan agree a democracy constitution is never caused. However, the Japanese emperor can establish a dominant constitution.
In the first place the phenomenon that 100 million human beings whom there is in Japan agree a democracy constitution is never caused. However, the Japanese emperor can establish a dominant constitution.
The Japanese ruler is angry at the native most badness of Japanese people and performs transcendence-like self-generation. He thereby becomes a man of power. That means, it means that the Japanese of the overwhelming majority that cannot be angry at a native human being cannot follow a ruler. In other words, in Japan, the democratic constitution is never agreed. The reason why all the Japanese get ability for agreement for such a constitution is at first impossible. Thus, there is not the constitution of the democracy in Japan.
次の英文を和訳しなさい。
You are deceived by a Japanese. There are few human beings in the Japanese Islands. Most of the Japanese are animals. Your thought that Japanese is a general language is misunderstanding. The truth is different. The thing recognized like the words that they issue is a mere sound and is not a language.
一人の社員がAndroidアプリのプロトタイプ作成に手を挙げます。
彼はなんとか自力でHackして仕様を満たせるよう努力しました。
そんな折、彼に信じがたい言葉を投げかける人がいました。
「まず報告しろ。」
たしかに、彼は報告を怠った。それは社会人としてあるまじき行為だった。
叱責や処罰の対象だろうか？
私は、そうは思わない。
「よちよち歩きでOKでちゅよ」
これはPerlの父、Larry Wallの言葉だ。
我々は、いつでも好奇心と研究心を歓迎するし、真に自由を愛している。
そういうとキチガイじみているが、狂気とmoralの境目くらいは認識している。
私はYellow Hackerだ。
黄色は警告の色だ。
私は警告する。
そのやり方は正しくないし、賢明でもないし、"The Answer"でもない。
それが私の唯一の答えであり、ドンキホーテのように立ち向かった証でもある。
最後に一つだけ。
プログラマー諸君、元気を出して働こう。
人間だ。
Because we are human beings.
「続きを読む」
「さらに続きを読む」
「英文標準問題精講」（原仙作 著）。第５訂版。初版はなんと戦前の１９３３年。今も本屋の大学受験コーナーに行けば売られている、参考書の古典中の古典である。
１０年くらい前だろうか。大学受験する時に買ってはみたのだけれど、さっぱりわからんと放り投げたこの参考書を、なぜだか分からないがふと思い出し、本棚の奥からひっぱり出してふむふむと読み進めてみたら面白くて止まらなくなってしまった。今では、寝る前に２、３本の例文を読むことが最近の日課になってしまってすらいる。
アマゾンでの散々な評価[amazon:英文標準問題精講]で見れるように，この本は確かに受験参考書としては使えない。より解説が豊富で効率的に要点を学べる本が山ほど出ており、純粋に受験生の実用性でのみ評価した場合、もう役目を終えていると言っていいかもしれない。
しかしそれでも本書の魅力自体は色あせていない。「英文標準問題精講」が持つ最大の魅力は、その全例文が近現代史に名を残した偉人たちの言葉で綴られていることにある。例えばこんな具合に。
Contemporary events differ from history in that we do not know the results they will produce. Looking back, we can assess the significances of past occurrences and trace the consequences they have brought in their train.But while history runs its course, it is not history to us.(隷属の道より)
改めて読み直した時、私は経済学者フリードリヒ・フォン・ハイエクによるこんな論考が受験参考書の「例文」して、ごく当たり前のように取り上げられていたことに、まず何より驚愕した。なんていうハイレベルな自己満足をするのだろう！そりゃあ今時の高校生が読んでもわからないはずだと思った。とは言え、ハイエクの他にもラッセル、アインシュタイン、スタインベックなど一級の知性がしたためた文章が載っており、英文エッセイ集としての魅力は廃れるどころかむしろもっと再評価がなされるべきではないか。
本書の内容は多岐にわたり、しかも普遍的なものだ。幼少時代についた嘘についての体験談から、「知識は人間を幸せにするのか」「芸術や詩歌の意義」といった哲学的なテーマまで。かつての知識人達がいったいどのように感じ、考えてきたか、その一端を垣間見ることができてとても興味深い。
私の場合、読んでいて特にハッとしたエッセイが、ヘンリー・ミラーの一文だ。
What makes a book live? How often this question arises! The answer, in my opinion, is simple. A book lives through the passionate recommendation of one reader to another.Nothing can throttle this basic impulse in the human being.
すぐ忘れ去られる本がある一方で、何十年と長く読みつがれる本があるが、その違いは何か。長生きする本は、その当時最も売れた本でもないし、一方で最も正しいことを書いた本でもない。それはただ、その本に気をとめ、大きな声で推薦する声が途切れなかったから長く、生き続けてきたのである。成熟された、いい考え方だと思う。
私もヘンリー・ミラーに習って推薦してみたい。これは大人のための英語学習書だ、と。せっかちな受験生が読むような中身の薄い例文ではなく、じっくりと反芻できる重みのある文章を読む。そんなクールな英文学習ができる本なんてちょっと見当たらない。ビジネス書とＴＯＥＩＣについ目移りするサラリーマンにこそ、今、「英文標準問題精講」が求められていると思う。
I finally understood something. A cliche, but something that is important to me.
I've seen nine counselors and four psychiatrists since I was eighteen. I've been sexually and verbally abused by my family, had eating problems, both anorexia and bulimia, and have also been abused by two of the therapists. I'm also a returnee, as the Japanese label me, so I've been bullied at school, and never really felt like I fit in anywhere, including my family. Yes, I had a whole lot of problems.
I always though about killing myself, and it was a ritual to think about whether to die and how to live at the top of a building on my birthday night. The air was always cold and clear, and stars just seem so near. Up there, rationality just seemed to blur, and wrong or right became so dull with all the pain. As a person who believes Christ, or perhaps in any other religion, suicide is a sin, but it literally felt like living in hell.
Nevertheless, now I finally understand. It was the sense of isolation and hunger of being accepted, that had been eating me after all. It's such a cliche, but I guess it's true. It irritates me because not one of the therapists were capable of handling a bilingual, abused and wounded person, and I myself never realized how much trouble I had when the other person was only capable of handling Japanese, although I am as good as a native after living here twenty years. Some of the therapists were trained and licensed in U.S. and spoke English, but I also didn't notice the huge difference of them and myself -- I can't give an explicit example, but I guess being a returnee and a natural interpreter gives people a different sense. Now, I clearly see the difference is not ignorable. And, it's almost unbelievable that it took me so long to come to this point.
I hate myself. I hate myself for not realizing all these years, for all the money I spent on therapy, for being abused, for being abused again by a therapist, for not being able to communicate my feelings and for even ignoring my own senses just to be accepted by my therapists themselves.
Perhaps being bilingual to me is much more troublesome than others say. Hopefully I can now be more comfortable by accepting that I'm like a gypsy. I've always been an outlaw, anyway. And I hope I can be able to connect with people and have real relationships. All the things I wanted from a therapist are the same things I wanted from normal other human beings. I know there are things that need to be covered by professionals, but now that I realize even professionals can't help, and I can't be really accepted by any professional, as long the relationship is kept "professional."
I hope I can sometime make a real relationship, accept and be accepted, by another person, maybe another gypsy.
http://d.hatena.ne.jp/sho_ta/20090216/1234786976 の"unique divinity of the individual"に着想を得ました。
英文の引用は http://www.jpost.com/servlet/Satellite?cid=1233304788868&pagename=JPost%2FJPArticle%2FShowFull
和訳の引用は http://anond.hatelabo.jp/20090217011603
上段：村上氏の発言（訳されたもの）
下段：アルベール・カミュ作「ペスト（新潮文庫、第67刷、2006年刊）」
固く高い壁があり、卵が壁に打ち壊されるなら、壁がどんなに正しく卵がどんなに誤っていても私は卵の側に立ちます。
If there is a hard, high wall
and an egg that breaks against it,
no matter how right the wall or how wrong the egg,
I will stand on the side of the egg.
「この地上には天災と犠牲者というものがあるということ、そうして、できうるかぎり天災に与することを拒否しなければならぬということだ」 (P377)
「あの大物のペスト患者たち～略～もまたその場合の立派な理由があるわけだし、もし僕が小物のペスト患者たちのもちだす不可抗力という理由と、必要性ということを容認するとしたら、大物どものそれも否認することができなくなる」 (P373, 374)
「僕はこう考えた。 ～略～ このいまわしい虐殺にそれこそたった一つの ～略～ 根拠でも与えるようなことは絶対に拒否しようと」 (P374)
どうしてなのか？私たちそれぞれは卵であり、壊れやすい卵にくるまれた唯一無二の存在だからです。私たちそれぞれは高い壁を前にしています。高い壁とはシステムです。それは通常では個人として受け入れがたいものを私たちに強います。
Why? Because each of us is an egg, a unique soul enclosed in a fragile egg.
Each of us is confronting a high wall.
The high wall is the system which forces us to do the things
we would not ordinarily see fit to do as individuals.
「僕の問題というのは、つまりあの胸にあいた穴だったのだ」 (P374)
「われわれはみんなペストの中にいるのだ」 (P375)
私が小説を書く理由はただ一つです。すなわち個人が持つ唯一無二の神聖さを描く事です。唯一無二なるものを満足させる事です。システムが私たちをめちゃくちゃにするのを防ぐ事です。だから私は生と愛について物語を書きます。人々を笑わせ、泣かせます。
I have only one purpose in writing novels,
that is to draw out the unique divinity of the individual.
To gratify uniqueness.
To keep the system from tangling us.
So - I write stories of life, love.
Make people laugh and cry.
「これはあなたのような人には理解できることではないかと思うのですがね、～略～ おそらく神にとって、人々が自分を信じてくれないほうがいいかもしれないんです。そうしてあらんかぎりの力で死と戦ったほうがいいんです、神が黙している天上の世界に目を向けたりしないで」 (P188)
私たちは皆人間であり、個人であり、壊れやすい卵です。壁を前にして、望みは失われます。高く、暗く、冷たすぎるのです。暖かみと力のために、私たちの存在を一つにして壁と戦わなくてはなりません。システムが私たちをコントロールするのを許してはいけません。私たちが何者であるか、決めさせてはいけません。システムを作り上げたのはは私たちですから。
We are all human beings, individuals, fragile eggs.
We have no hope against the wall:
it's too high, too dark, too cold.
To fight the wall, we must join our souls together for warmth, strength.
We must not let the system control us - create who we are.
It is we who created the system.
「このペストがあなたにとって果たしてどういうものになるか」「際限なく続く敗北です」 (P188)
「そして心の平和に到達するためにとるべき道について～略～何かはっきりした考えはあるか、と尋ねた。『あるね。共感ということだ』」 (P379)
「われわれは一緒に働いているんです。冒涜や祈祷を超えてわれわれを結びつける何者かのために。それだけが重要な点です」 (P373)
イスラエルの皆さん、私の本を読んでくれて感謝します。意義ある何かを共有できればと願う次第です。あなたが私がここにいる最大の理由なのです。
I am grateful to you, Israelis, for reading my books.
I hope we are sharing something meaningful.
You are the biggest reason why I am here.
「神さえも、今ではわれわれを引き離す事はできないんです」 (P324)
